ACH-Monday, December 16, 2002-09:33 p.m.
OK, I just wrote a whole entry and my computer erased it so I have to start all over again...but there's NO way I'm typing all that a second time! Short short version:

Mr. Lybrand had to tell Tommy to pay attention during the video we watched in Zoology today, and so his friend Justin was like "Yeah, stop looking at Sherry." So maybe he was staring at me! Hopefully it wasn't cuz he was thinking "Dear God, what is that thing?" CUZ HE'S HOT AND I WOULD SOOOOO GO CRAZY IF HE LIKED ME. OK, enough of that. It gets sickening after a while. Until later, adios people! I shall give updates if there are any to be giv'n.

Teeheehee ^_^-Sunday, December 15, 2002-01:34 p.m.
I'm happy today (except that my dad was being a real JERK about my driving -- and THEN he started aiming his accusations about my "terrible behavior and lack of manners" at anime and my music and all that stuff I like to do. Oh yeah, Dad, THAT's the way to get on my good side and encourage me to be less of a smartass to you: insult everything I believe in. Good job. *note the heavy sarcasm* GAH, I hate stupid people. Anyway, I'm happy for four reasons:

First, I was on the phone with Dweenie and Scott cuz they called me (yes, that's right, they included me!). When Scott had to go, I was able to tell Dween how I was feeling about things lately. When I told her I felt rejected cuz she was always with Scott and never with me anymore, she said she was sorry, and she didn't know, cuz if she had, she would have made a greater effort to make me feel not so alone. So she said today that she would call me more often this week ^_^. I'm glad I haven't lost my best friend!!

Second, while I was on the phone with Dweenie, we three-way called Adam's cell. I got ahold of him this time!! ^_^ And I was like asking him if he was still mad at me cuz I'm really sorry, and he said he wasn't mad and in fact he'd never been angry...hmm...Jon's been fibbing again, I see. Oh well, I'm just happy to know Adam isn't angry with me! I hope he visits soon!! I meeeeess hiiiim!!

Third, I found out that John had gotten rid of that mean post on his site's guestbook, and he replaced it with a funny little message for me. ^_^ I hadn;t noticed that he got rid of the other one at first -- I only saw that he had added one for me. But then, as I was talking to Dween last night (a lot of things happened to me last night while talking to Dweenie!), I suddenly realized I hadn't remembered seeing the mean post. I went back and looked and just about cried, I was so touched. You gotta understand, only just recently (like in the past year or so) has John been becoming better friends with me, and I was surprised he cared about my feelings enough to do that for me. I feel better about things now. ^_^

Fourth, Matt wasn't angry at me for missing the practice. I explained that John had insisted it was on Sunday, not Saturday and that by the time I found out it was on Saturday, it was an hour past the rehearsal time. I ALSO found out that he was the one who posted the mean statement about me posting more than Brandon. However, he insisted that he's never serious about what he writes there, and he didn't mean what he said. So all things are well in my world...'cept for the whole my-dad's-being-an-ass thing. But yeah, adios, peoples.^_^

Aww...;_;-Saturday, December 14, 2002-09:22 p.m.
I haven't heard from Adam yet, and I've apologized for freaking out on him twice now: once by email, and again leaving a message on his cell...I want to apologize to his face, or AT LEAST talking to him on the phone, but he's never around anymore! CURSE that job of his. I'm downloading stuff and I'm cold and I have a MAJOR headache, so I'm not gonna talk anymore today. See you all later.

Real quick!-Friday, December 13, 2002-06:00 p.m.
I have a little time before I have to leave for the open house. I reread what I had written yesterday, and this guy named Tommy had been really nice to me at the beginning of class, but he's still got his "I'm-obviously-a-guy" moments. Oh well. What can ya do? Girls are just as bad..if not worse. I'll go ahead and admit that now. I know what they've done to my guy friends. And I know what they've done to me (friend-wise). AS A GENERAL RULE, since I like to think I'm not that bad of a person, girls can be quite the backstabbing little byotchs!

About that dream I mentioned, there's this guy named Andy in my Econ class, and my friend Alex is convinced I have a crush on him. I DON'T!...well, ok, ok, I won't admit it to them, but I'll admit it here cuz no one involved in this knows how to get here. I guess I do. I had this dreamlast night that I was in some sort of drama class and Andy was there (I relate him to that cuz he's in drama club with me). He was in the outfit I'd seen him in when he performed in A Christmas Carol on Wednesday (he looked so good *drools*...ach *smack* no, bad Sherry!) and Andrea (the girl I could almost swear he likes that's ALSO in my Econ class) was there too. There were 5 of us, but I dunno who the other two people were. We were wplit into groups, Andrea and one person being in one group, and Andy and another person in the other group. I was undecided, but I wanted to be in Andy's group. Right as I was thinking that, Andy put his arm around my waist and pulled me over to his group (hey, heeeey! ~_^). Meanwhile, Andrea was giving me a nudge and one of those "go-for-it" looks. Then I realized I'd overslept and woke up....I wonder what would have happened had it not been for stupid school........hmmm....

What a relief!-Friday, December 13, 2002-01:15 p.m.
I'm finished with my test in Zoology, and I got my Econ homework done in Orchestra since we had a free period. Sorry I didn't get back to this yesterday, the concert went late....and since we go to DQ afterward to celebrate, I didn't get home until almost 10:30. SO...I don't remember what I was going to tell you...WAIT YES, I do. But now I'm at school again so I still can't tell you. Geez. *pouts* I don't have much spare time these days, with finals approaching and all, but I'll try to finish this tonight...Since it's Friday, I can stay up late and do so. (I have to go to my parents' open house at their new office and serve punch though, so I don't know how late I'll be.) I got really sad though...Today we had our Share Your Talent Day in drama class. When it was over, I got all depressed cuz we only have three more classes left until finals...and then it's all over. ;_; I'll miss all my classes (for the people, not the classes themselves *gag* -- EXCEPT for drama, cuz I really enjoyed that class...and Zoology was cool too. I'm always up for some more biological education lol.) Anyway, I had a dream last night about this guy in my Econ class...it was SO WEIRD. I'll tell you about it tonight! Until then, farewell! ^_^

*yawn*-Thursday, December 12, 2002-12:48 p.m.
It seems that I often get to write in my journal in Zoology, doesn't it? Here I am again...I suppose I'll stick around long enough to get a few words out and then go back to studying for our test tomorrow. Not that I really need to. Most of the stuff on there isn't too hard to remember, and some of it I knew before we studied the lesson. Hmmm...I don't have much else to say right now, since there are people that could easily see what I type (but when I get home, I have something to add about this class period!! mwahaha) Anyway, see ya when I get home!

P.S. Tonight is our Christmas concert! YAY! I can get this over with and then we get a free period tomorrow (I love not having to play ^_^).

Hmm...I don't know what to make of this day...-Wednesday, December 11, 2002-08:17 p.m.
Today was a mixture of good and bad. To start out with, I overslept, but at least it wasn't to the extent that I was late to school. I just had to spend a little less time deciding what to wear. Since today was character ed. day, I got to attend the character ed. breakfast, cuz Mr. Lybrand nominated me for the SECOND time! Somebody has a wittle cwush. mwahahahah! J/K But yeah, character ed. breakfast means missing class (although I don't really wanna miss drama cuz it's a FUN class) and getting free Chick-fil-A chicken biscuits!! YUM. On the other side of the coin, I don't think I did so well on an Econ test today, and plus I just saw a pretty mean post on Schming's guestbook...it said I sign it more than Brandon does, which is not true, and to give you a point of reference, Brandon has been made fun of and even fussed at for signing the guestbook so much. And they DARE to accuse me of signing it more often than Brandon??? I swear, if I haven't cooled off from this by our next band practice, I'm gonna cuss them out and quit the band. That was rude and embarrassing to me, and I'm sick of them always making fun of me! I sat there and took it for a long time, cuz I loved John, but seriously, he's not worth me being constantly hurt. I can't take it anymore, and I don't wanna make a fool of myself and cry in front of them everytime they insult me...I hate it when I do that. I dunno why, but I've always had such a freakin hard time keeping myself from crying once the feeling to do so bubbles up. I'm not as much angry at whoever posted it as I am sad, hurt, and embarrassed. And speaking of "whoever posted it", that's right, I don't even know who to directly yell at, cuz whoever it was seems to have been too chicken to put their name on the post. Cowards! They're all just stupid cowards. I don't care, I'm just gonna quit, but I will apologize to Matt's dad, cuz I know he wanted me to stay in the band and he's always been nice. Man I feel like crying....and the next thing I'm about to say isn't gonna help any...You see, the other thing that's been troubling me for a while is my best friend.

Dweenie has always been there for me, but she sometimes had trouble understanding my guy problems cuz she was single and didn't want to hear them. But I needed her. I let it go, cuz I figured if I was single, I wouldn't want to hear about somebody and their guy. Nevertheless, when I was with Jon, I always made time for her. I would call her up and talk to her and stuff, and I wouldn't leave her if Jon called...but now she's the one with the boyfriend, and I'm single. Scott seemed nice at first, but now I'm really starting to despise him! I mean, I call her up, and she's on the phone with him, so she can't talk to me (which I can understand). HOWEVER, whenever I'm talking to her and HE calls, I'm still supposed to hang up and let her talk to him! Nevermind the fact that he gets to see her at school during the week, and I only see her once a week (on Sundays at church), assuming she goes to our church that day-- sometimes she is at her Nana's and other times she's at SCOTT'S church! He's totally taking her away from me, and she's letting it all happen...it hurts so much to think about it, but I need to write it down, cuz it's really been pressing on my heart...I gotta let it out....I gotta cry...Anyway, as I was saying...I called her once, and she told me to call back later. When I did, Scott was at her house and he got all pissed and told her to get off the phone. I REEEAALLY don't like him anymore. Stupid prick thinks he can just waltz in and steal my best friend away from me!! I HATE HIM. WITH A VENGEANCE. Man, it seems like I'm mad at everybody today! Well, that's not so, I assure you, so no worries, but I can tell you that I AM in a bad emotional state...I'm starting to feel like people I thought were my friends are dropping like flies...and leaving me alone with the pain of it. Thanks a LOT, jerks. I'm sorry for all of you who did nothing wrong to me, and I promise you will rewarded for your patience and kindness...I need to go listen to some depressing music so I can cry and THEN listen to angry music, cuz when I'm done crying, I generally get angry lol. Well, here we go! I'm off!

Geez, what is WITH this week anyway?!-Tuesday, December 10, 2002-04:23 p.m.
Another very interesting day (to say the least) has passed. Again, the day went by quickly, which is good, cuz the less time seemingly spent in that prison they dare to call school, the better! It's so dark and rainy today -- I LOVE it!! LoL OK, now I shall take you through the day's events, and lemme tell ya, the last thing about the bra is definitely the highlight of the day...NOT. Anywayz, my drama skit went really well today and I was super happy about that! I had been so nervous, but alas, I pulled it off. ^_^

In orchestra, I got scared cuz Dr.T wanted to see me after class, and I was like "Aw MAN, what'd I do THIS time?!?!" Ya see, he always seems to find something to get mad at me about, even when you'd think it was impossible to do so. But it all turned out to be that he wanted to know if I was willing to be in a quartet for our next spaghetti dinner in the spring! GAHLEE, did he have to scare me like that?? I also found out that I won't have to worry about Chandler being in my face ever again! He got my friend's brother to spit water on a teacher, so they're both not allowed to come to school for ten days, which means not even until next semester, and of course he "quit" orchestra, so I REALLY won't see him ever again, mwahahaha!! I still can't believe what he did though...he has really changed...for the WORSE. *SHUDDERS* Anyway, moving right along...

Zoology sucked today cuz Mr. Lybrand was gone (his sister either had or is still having her baby, so he's with her), and our sub was SO FREAKIN QUIET! He was saying he wasn't going to raise his voice for us if we didn't stop talking, so if we didn't hear our names and raise our hands, he'd count us absent...but THEN he NEVER talked loud all thru class...it's like he didn't know HOW TO or something! And besides, we always have to do all this stupid busywork when Mr.L isn't around. >.< I hate that. AND Mr. Lybrand missed out on my button-up shirt today. *wink wink*

OKAY, now I shall explain the bra/shirt thing! In my last class (Econ), we were turning in those stock projects I mentioned yesterday. Coach Maz was taking up our posters one by one and came to take mine and some of the others' around me...After he'd done so, I sat back and slouched a bit, and then I happened to glance downward. And there was my bright, shiny, turquoise, starry bra glaring back at me!!! The first button I had fastened came undone, and the next one down was below my bra!! I dunno what Coach Maz saw, but I'm VERY sorry!!!! I was soooo embarrassed!!!

I went to Starbucks with Jess today, but my boyfriend wasn't there ;_;...OH WELL, I still have Matt to dream about!! teeheehee ^.^ <3<3<3

*sigh* What a day!-Monday, December 9, 2002-05:19 p.m.
Today was quite the day! --not that anything particularly special happened, but it went by nice and fast ^_^...plus the fact that a bunch of little things have been happening all day that are really good, and so they're starting to add up! I'm just relieved that I'm now done with an Econ project that's due tomorrow. And NO, I didn't procrastinate; it's just that my last stock report had to be done today, so there was no way I could completely finish the project until tonight. But it's all done, and I only have to rehearse my lines for a drama skit I have to perform tomorrow a little bit, cuz I pretty much know them already. Well...I better not say that, cuz it will curse me!! LoL Anyway, I need to finish a paper for Zoology, but Mr. Lybrand is really lenient about things and the paper itself isn't hard at all to write, so I should be fine on that account as well. Tomorrow, after all of that is done and over with, I'll be in the best mood ever -- I hope, lol. But yeah, hopefully Jess will be able to take me to Starbucks after school so we can see my boyfriend ^_^ teeheehee! I mean, after all, he was working on Tuesday last week, so let's just see if he's there tomorrow as well, shall we? I HOPE SO!!! Unfortunately, we won't be able to stay long cuz Jess is going to the mall. *pouts* Not only does she have to leave Starbucks fairly early, but she ALSO gets to go to the mall....without ME! I haven't been in a while, and I'm really missing it, lol. Besides, I need to get out and coerce my dad into hurrying up and getting me a new mouse....this whole I-can't-right-click thing is REALLY getting to me!!!!!!! >.< I'm fine...I'm fine....'s all good....ok so anyway, I think I shall be off for now. Arr me harties, catch up with yous guys later, arr! (<--mwahaha, I sound like a mobster pirate!)

P.S. As promised in my last entry, I shall keep you posted on my love life: I thought about Matt a LOT today...I'm still not completely sure of the extent of my affections, but I definitely have at least a little crush. It's OBVIOUS at this point!

LoL, uh oh...here we go again....-Sunday, December 8, 2002-06:18 p.m.
I fear I may be falling into a state of affection for Matt...I dunno, but for some reason, the more I entertain the thought, the more appealing it becomes....I'm not sure if I already mentioned him in a past entry, but if I didn't, he's the drummer for my band...he's two years younger than me, but I don't really care. I dunno why it matters so much to other people, but c'mon, it's only TWO years. Besides, that's REALLY not gonna matter when we're older, not that it even matters now. I'm not sure of my feelings yet, but he may be another love interest...I'll keep ya posted. Back to my drooling over thoughts of him HAHAHA.